• Doctor's went better than anticipated today... ughh doctors appt.'s!
• It seems my favorite people all move far away... Shane you will be missed.. see you by the end of the summer.. when you most likely move back..  Justen 2003, Dom 2004, Angel 2005, Shane 2007    damn.. WTF
• HIV test this week: Negative! YAY!!!
• I'm sooo f'n psyched about my mini get-a-way to LA in august.. 5 nights away is better than none!!  This is my hotel: it's like that ya'll
• Bob Dylan is ONE WEEK AWAY!!!!! I really and excited... it's my dad's father day/birthday present... he'll be the big 5-0... and he is super excited that we are going.. at first he thought i just got him one ticket LOL.. when he found out I was going.. he was like a little kid.. he has planned out everything... to playing at the casion before the concert and eating etc.
• Even when i'm down for a moment.. I really have to stop myself and go "wow.. I can't believe I was blessed to be in my shoes" I have honestly experienced sooo much... and so far 2007 has been AMAZINGGGGGG  out with the OLD (washed up and tired,shady and fake, posers and addicts) and in with the NEW.... Big things have happened... and are slowly in the works... without a map.... and it's just insane... insane.. insane.... I'm just a boy from Delaware.. it almost makes me cry sometimes.. when I think about how lucky I am.. and all of the reallly fucken awesome things I have experienced
• My drag show last week was the best shows of my life... no pics or video to prove it.. but the thinsg people have been telling me.. WOW.. made me feel good... because I put my effort into it.. and people LOVED IT... and I got mad props from fellow performers.. friends.. and EVEN ENEMIES.
• School being done FOR LIFE... has yet to actually hit me...  i'm a grown up.

ok... lost on AIM
that is all for now

I bet you think this song is about you.. don't you... don't you...


well.. it's probably NOT
and if it is... you atleast KNOW it's about YOU...

so no need for calling out names from ANY of you PARTIES....
this is silly

I'm chris..
and I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAYYYYYY (in the style of Ms. Jeri Blank)


ALLLL YYYOUUUU CCCRRRRRRAZZZZZZYYYY PEEEEEEOOOOOPPPPLLLEEEE COOOOMMMMMEEEE ONNNN JUUUUMMMMPPPPP AAAARRRRROOOOOUNNNNNNDDD

• I really HATE when people allow certain friends to be controlling over who they may and may not spend time around. It's PATHETIC.
• I talked to BILLY on the phone last night for almost an hour... I never thought i'd be friends with him one day. it's CRAZY.
• I have something HUGE to look forward to in MAY
• It's been 3 months!!! YAY!!!
• I have started to wear BRIGHT colors again... it was tough.. but i'm doing it.
• I may have hit a rabbit tonight and I felt really bad
• Friday was super fun and i'm glad that Tonei and Kevin and WENDI all came dancing with me... I danced soo much!!!
• Saturday was possibly even MORE FUN... got to see my JEN BIRD <3... and danced up a fucken STORM....and then had func hillen outside of the club.. and even did the diner... drunk people are funny!
• Coat Check on Sunday was not too bad.. I was able to go on the dance floor and dance for 30 minutes... and it made me really happy.. I smiled the ENTIRE time.... because I CAN HAVE FUN ALL BY MYSELF.
• 5 weeks left of school and I AM DONE.
• Work has been GREAT... I love what I do... and I get to meet some awesome women every time I work
• I had such a nice nap @ Jaysons tonight.. when I woke up my str8 bf had left but he left me a post it note goodbye on my shoe.. HOW CUTE...
• Jeff and Denise had me laughing when I was not asleep... I am JEALOUS of their friendship.. but I am really glad to have friends like them.
• I am obsessed with DENISE KALE still... she never runs out of funny things to say.. and people who can make me laugh are my favorite... i love to laugh as much as I love to dance
• Mike broke my pinky
• Jayson loved how well i can flop around like a mermaid
• I hate not having music in my car. It's tough!

alcohol/dancing:

The last night I went out drinking was DECEMBER 26TH 2006...
  Since then I have only drank two other day's.   I had a shot the end of a LONG COAT CHECK SHIFT @ Pure from midnight to 8AM on NEW YEARS EVE. I also had two shots the night of Katie's (my cousin.. who is like a sister) birthday. The bartenders had made them already as a nice birthday gesture.. and so I could not refuse. 

It was getting to the point where I could not have fun some places where I used to have fun without alcohol. I was also driving way too many times when I should NOT have. I also was spending way too much. 

I feel soooo much better. It's tough sometimes. I want to get drunk a lot of nights.. because it's easier to have fun that way. KEYWORD: EASY. I don't want the easy way always.. I want the way that works best for me. I dance soooo much more!!
In fact I love dancing.. I feel like i'm 19 again.. I used to dance soo much every saturday @ Heaven.. and it made my whole week.

I hate dancing with other people. Usually because other people tend for you to need to dance close to them. I like to dance like nobody is watching. It's the funnest and by far the coolest way to dance! 

It is a great feeling to be out having fun dancing.. and to realize I did not need alcohol to have fun!

weight:

I was 186-189 in December.. that was it.. it was a turning point.. I had finally overcome one thing in my life and quit was so so hard all on MY OWN... and I somehow needed to now excersize. SO COLD. So NO LUCK. So dancing was my answer. I try to go out dancing several nights a week. It really has been working. I have cut down most of my fatty food.. but I had started that even before I quit drinking.  I also do not eat after the club. WHICH IS TOUGH. I am doing about 98% good about that.
I am down to like 171-173... YAY....
I have not been this thin since 2004 sometime..
so my goal weight by June is 155... let's wish me luck!
I do have diesel legs.. so I kno weight has gone into that muscle.. i'm ok with that.


friends: 

lately I have been spending a lot more time with the friends that man the MOST to me.. there are still tons i'd love to see more often.. but I'm pretty content with my friends now. Monday nights are JERSEY NIGHTS... I LIVE FOR THAT GANG.. so much fun!! I have even gotten the chance to chill around Mikey and Joey a lot more. Nick seems to be my best friend at the MOMENT. I have too many best friends to put one person on that pedestool. 
I can say I'm very happy that Tonei and I are good friends again. It's nice to have my lil ostriche back texting me. I think we both are grown up enough right now and have known each other long enough that our friendship is just right.
I even get to see Danny on most wednesday's. He realized that 80's night is ALOT OF FUN.

It's funny how one day your friends with people.. and then all of a sudden they have no time to invite you to places or things anymore.
so 2007 for me is all about the invite.. maybe you can't make it.. but i'm still gonna try and ask.. I don't ever want any of my friends that I think are special to feel that i only wanna be around them in large groups. It's not about how MANY PEOPLE go to something.. it's about how much you enjoy the people you are surrounded with. This is not in regards to any single person or any group of people. It's about many many people of many groups.

I have enough GREAT FRIENDS.. I don't need to keep searching for new ones... I need to EDIT/DELETE the one who mean SHIT  to me.

It only takes a text/phone call.. 
friendship is not a ONE WAY STREET...




boys: 
Meh... there was a BOY back in December.. but our schedules don't mesh.. and I am happier being his friend.. it's kind of wierd not having any boys for  the last 2.5 months.. probably better this way... I really care about fixing friendships.. more than any boy right now...

lol.. words cant explain how MUCH I love this pic:

so..my little buddy Gio got hit by a car yesterday..

though.. earlier in the day he came in and jumped up with me in my chair and then walked right over and sat with Tara.. sorta odd..

i'm gonna miss...

• him jumping on the sink for me to turn the water on so he can take a few sips
• my mom opening her ciggs and him running in so she can play with the wrapper
• him hiding between the shower curtian and liner whenever I went to take a shower
• him greeting me at my car everytime I got out of my car
• him and the dog chasing each other around in the backyard
• him before he got fixed and would bite and bite and bite.. so cute
• him falling into the pond because he was playing too rough with the dog
• him stealing my chair at the comp any chance I got up
• him helping me type
• him putting his little paws under my bedroom door trying to sneak in
• him anytime I see another white cat

He had actually got bigger then the pics.. but no pics were taken..(the first two are when my sister found him sick in wilmington on the streets.. he actually was looking better in that second pic then the day we got him)

The top twenty songs I played over the last (3 months accoridng to iTunes) year:
1. Madonna- Hung Up
2. Deborah Cox- House is not a Home
3. Mary J Blige- Be Without You (though I played this more on my i-pod)
4. Toni Braxton- Trippin'
5. Mary J Blige- Your Smiling Face
6. Mary J Blige- Never Too much
7. Mariah Carey- Don't Forget About Us
8. The Stills- Changes Are No Good
9. Fiona Apple- Criminal
10. Deborah Cox- Stupid Like You
11. Mary J Blige- Happy Endings
12. Madonna- Like it or Not
13. Mary J Blige- Deep Inside (hex hector mix)
14. Mary J Blige- Time
15. Sublime- Wrong Way
16. Toni Braxton- Stupid
17. Faith Evans- Can't Believe
18. Notorious B.I.G. ft. MJB, 2PAC & NAS- Living In Pain
19. Mary J Blige- Can't Hide From Love
20. Aretha Franklin- Son of  Preacher Man